medusan:

help a lesbian ❣

hi my name is amon and im a punjabi lesbian diagnosed with ptsd, bipolar II, pcos, and fibromyalgia. i hate to make this post but i am at the ends of my strength and need to utilize every option i have. i tried to kill myself last june and spent a year in college but for many reasons recovery has been slow going and i am still extremely suicidal and facing severe chronic pain and accompanying fibro symptoms and i had to drop out of school. i am set to go to EMT school next month and will hopefully get a job as an emt by the end of the year

one of the reasons recovery has been slow going is i am staying with my extremely abusive parents who have in the past year made threats to kill me and to kill myself to free them from a burden. my childhood was full of constant physical abuse which is led to my ptsd and chronic pain condition today. they continue to be abusive, and are also extremely uber religious and homophobic, having threatened to throw me out if i was gay. i am in the closet. i know that i have two options with my current state 1) kill myself 2) separate myself from this environment and i alternate between the two unfortunately. 

obviously, option number 2 is preferable. i am planning to save up money for a year. this is in no way an emergency. but if anyone can relate and is not poor themselves could consider giving a small amount or boosting this,  that would help me get out of here much faster and i would be eternally grateful. 

paypal: pandhermona@gmail.com