Onward

It had been an infinitely long and difficult journey. But they had made it. Finally.

They were home. Home at last.

Captain Janeway stood at the viewport, gazing at the beautiful blue and green orb, unsure about exactly what to think. The door chimed and she turned.

“Come.”

Chakotay entered, carrying a large variety of PADDs, undoubtedly requiring her attention. Before he could tell her about them, however, he sensed that something was off with her. Setting the work aside, he turned to face her.

“Are you alright, Kathryn?”

Janeway turned away from him slightly, not making eye contact.

“Of course.”

Chakotay didn’t believe her. Not for a second. After all this time, he knew when something was bothering her.

“Everything’s going to be just fine, Kathryn. You got us all home. Thanks to you the crew can move on with their lives now.”

Kathryn turned back to him now, tears brimming in her eyes.

“That’s just it, Chakotay”

“What,” Chakotay asked, worried, “what’s wrong?”

“I can’t… I can’t lose you, Chakotay.”

A wave of relief washed over Chakotay. Everything was going to be ok, he realized and smiled. He took a step closer to Kathryn and lightly grasped her hands, pulling her to him.

“Kathryn, look at me.”

Kathryn did as she was told, gazing up into the warm brown eyes.

“Kathryn, you could never lose me. I will always be with you, no matter what.”

“Oh, Chakotay…”

Kathryn reached up and wrapped her arms around him, reveling in the reassuring embrace. Minutes later, she pulled away slightly and turned back to the view outside. Suddenly completely content, for the first time in nearly seven years.

– K

A Sacrifice

“Chakotay”, I whisper, “I’m so sorry”

“You don’t have to do this Kathryn, we’ll find another way.”

Yes, I do, I want to say.

But instead, I reach for you. Letting myself, for the first time, feel completely safe in your strong arms.

“Time to go.”

I am pulled, roughly, from your embrace. I see the anger and longing flash quickly in your eyes. Then I see your pain.

I cannot bear to see your pain. I look away.

I am so sorry.

“Get them home” I manage, as I lock my gaze with yours, for the very last time.

Beneath

Kathryn Janeway stood overlooking the valley below. The simple dress she wore billowing in the gentle breeze.

It truly was a beautiful planet, a quiet one, teeming with wildlife and greenery. The crew wandered beneath her, enjoying the rare shore leave.

She surveyed the figures. They were relaxed and free. Happy.

Almost.

They deserved better.

She would do this for them.

Anything for them.

The woman began to shiver, though the day was warm. She took a step closer to the edge, closed her eyes, and took a deep breath, just as she felt a hand close around her wrist.

-K